Let it be

It’s been a month since I wrote but I can tell you it’s not for lack of anything to say! Life has been a whirlwind of activity this May and I find nearly all my time consumed by something; and I don’t mean that in a negative way at all.

The first long weekend of the month I went the farthest I’ve been in the UK yet, and ventured on the train to Edinburgh in Scotland. The last little bit of the trip is along the coast, and has absolutely amazing views of the North Sea on a sunny day. The train journey was 4.5 hours but quite nice as I travelled first class on the train and for the whole journey I had a four-seat section to myself.

Whilst in Edinburgh I did see the castle (which is actually pretty darn cool, as most castles are), The Palace at Holyroodhouse, and went on a ghost tour. However I think the best part of the trip was making some new friends that I met in my hostel room, Maria from Australia, Lara from Germany, and Jakie from my own Vancouver. We spent a couple of evenings together between the ghost tour and just having dinner together in the pub but they definitely made the trip for me. While I do love the history and the sights and just walking around taking it all in, its the people that make the difference.

Around Edinburgh though, life has been busy with mainly two things: Work and kickboxing. And I absolutely love it. Monday through Thursday I go to work in the morning, then straight to the gym for 2-3 hours right after work, then sometimes a bit of socialising with a friend and then home by 11:30pm. It makes for very long days but the week goes by fast and I love the time I spend at Springhealth. One or two times I week I spend two hours training, and then whenever I’m not doing my own training I’ve begun to help assist teach the new beginners classes. I’m also at the gym on Saturdays for three hours; one hour learning to spar, one hour training, and the last hour assisting teach new beginners. That means that I’m getting 6-7 hours training a week, and I’m exhausted by Sunday but I wouldn’t rather be doing anything else with my time.

The last thing that’s happened this month is complications with my attempt at acquiring a new work visa. My employer has to apply for a certificate of sponsorship by the 5th of June, and it turns out that the decisions of providing a certificate of sponsorship or not don’t happen until the 11th, which is the day I was meant to fly home to Canada to apply for a new work visa so that I can remain here in the UK. This creates a bit of a problem, as it would be stupid to assume a certificate of sponsorship will be approved and come through in time for me to apply while I’m in Canada. So my stress level escalated to 100 on a scale of 1-10 as I tried to decide what to do. I’m still working it out, but I think what’s going to happen is that I will need to delay my trip home to the last half of July to make sure everything is in order before I go. The downside to this is that I need to pay a £100 flight change fee plus the difference in cost of the flight. I originally bought my flight on a sale in January and the cost difference between June and July is about £450… that I don’t have. The other downside is that it kind of messes with my summer plans as I had planned my summer around going to Canada in June.

This work visa decides the next three years of my life, which means that not at any point have I taken this lightly. It’s easy for my friends and family to say “it’ll be fine” but even if it will, that doesn’t make me any less stressed about it. Mainly because this is something I have absolutely no control over once I’ve done everything I can to meet the requirements. I’ve been working on this since November and as every day passes the more and more convinced I am that I am meant to be here longer. My life is here now in many ways – my friends, my career, my goals for kickboxing and travel… there is so much riding on this. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but it means quite a lot to me.

And so in times like this the only thing I can really do is make sure I’ve done everything that is in my control, try to relax, and just LET IT BE.